November 22, 2015

The A-Z of C.S Lewis - Colin Duriez


God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, but shouts in our pains: it is His megaphone to rouse a deaf world

The human mind has no more power of inventing a new value than of imagining a new primary colour, or, indeed, of creating a new sun and a new sky for it to move in.

A myth is a story out of which ever varying meaning will grow whereas allegory suggests one meaning

Lewis was convinced that through story, the real world becomes a more magical place, full of meaning. we see its pattern and colour in a fresh way. The recovery of a true view of things applies both to individual things such as hills and stones, and to the cosmic - the depths of space and time itself.

Lewis regarded the purpose of his fiction as helping to undeceive modern people, who are separated from the past, with its knowledge of perennial human values, and from an acquaintance with even basic Christian teaching about the realities of sin, redemption, immortality, divine judgement, and grace.

For Aristotle, "Recognition marks a fundamental shift in the process of a story from increasing ignorance to knowledge. Protagonists, in a sense, recognize that they are in an unfolding story - a narrative precedes the event they are in, and will reach a conclusion subsequent to that event.

© Ratish

November 21, 2015

परिप्रेक्ष्य - Context Hindi Poem

परिप्रेक्ष्य

ऋतुवों का परिर्वतन ऊषा-निशा क्रम
बह्माण्ड राग भैरव लय-प्रलय नियम
जीवन का विस्तार चक्र से परिमित
इस मंच से स्वांग हुए है अनवरत

कुछ पात्र छोड गए नेपथ्य में संकेत
भुक्त-त्यक्त-संचित कथावशेष
रंगावतरण जब होगा तुम्हारा
लीला पर क्या प्रभाव होगा तुम्हारा?

तुम ही कथा-कथक हो
इच्छा, ज्ञान, कर्म के
व्यूह में ग्रसित से
तुम व्यूह के जनक हो

गति में स्तिथि, कोलाहल में शान्त
युद्ध में तठस्थ, भ्रम ज्ञान-अज्ञान
रति रमण करती घट-पट भ्रमण करती
रूचता ठहरती, जचता टहलती

है आरंभ-अंत क्या?
महानाटक के परिप्रेक्ष्य में
है पात्र का महत्व क्या?

हर पात्र का चरित्र है
भाव से, कार्य से
हर मुक्त राग युक्त है
भैरवी की ताल से

© Ratish
Didcot 21st Nov 15

September 20, 2015

Dwelling (revised)

Lodge by pond is frail and old
Damp in rains, in winters cold
Members of its once prime cast
Are faded memories from the past

Outdoors is yet alive and young
Wilderness has spread and sprung
Vines weave walls like a suture
Hope endures in an uncertain future

© Ratish

Didcot
September 15

Assignment to review a previous poem

August 31, 2015

Dwelling

The dwelling built is getting old

Damp in rains, in winters cold

All the members of its cast


Are faded memories from the past


The garden yet looks fresh and young

With seasonal flowers that have sprung

Vines are acting as a suture

Holding it together into uncertain future


Didcot
Aug15
© Ratish

Rhyme words taken from poem below as part of poetry workshop

What Fifty Said..
When I was young my teachers were the old.
I gave up fire for form till I was cold.
I suffered like a metal being cast.
I went to school to age to learn the
past.
Now when I am old my teachers are the young.
What can't be molded must be cracked and sprung.
I strain at lessons fit to start a suture.
I got to school to youth to learn the future.
Robert Frost

The knife of life


It can cut or cure
Hurt or feed
If used recklessly
It makes you bleed


The knife of life is
A weapon, a tool
The knife of life is
No one's fool


Knives begin sharp
Become blunt in time
Few craftsmen work to
Sharpen their lives


The knife is a gift
Learn to wield it swift
Life is a force
Be Generous

Didcot,  Aug 15
© Ratish

Clear lens and blurred vision

Eye shaped receptacle
Bridged
With soft nose pads

Two slender sticks
Moulded
curved towards the end

Clear high index lens
Mounted
On coloured frame

The vision enhanced
Blurred
later with reflection.

© Ratish
Didcot
Aug 15

August 17, 2015

Notes to myself: Words and Conversations

Events in recent past have led me to question some of my current mental models on conversation and usage of words.
I had to conduct few difficult conversations with individuals. Also some quips I made were not well received. I have considered retorts and sarcasm to be integral part of conversations.

Words if used in an inopportune manner may be used to misguide, incite hatred, cause hurt or even to filibuster and wash out an entire parliament session.

I required clarity around a few constructs

  • What to speak
  • What not to speak 
  • How to speak it
These are not new questions. Some directions came from the readings:

सत्यं ब्रूयात्  प्रियं ब्रूयात्नब्रूयात्  सत्यमप्रियं
प्रियं च नानृतं ब्रूयात्   एष धर्मः सनातनः

Speak the truth which is pleasant. Do not speak the truth that is undesirable. Never speak untruth, which might be pleasant.This is the path of eternal morality. 


To narrate how things happened is not truth

Some of directions came from sages and practitioners. Kabir in his couplets says:


बोली तो अनमोल है, जो कोई जाने बोल |

हृदय तराजू तोल के, तब मुख बहार खोल ||
Words are priceless for those who know how to use it. They should be weighted inside carefully and then should be spoken out.

मधुर वचन है औषधि, कुटिल वचन है तीर |

श्रवन द्वार है संचरे, साले सकल सरीर ||
Pleasurable words are like medicine and harsh words are like arrow. It enters through the gates of ears and causes distress to the whole body .

While it will take more practice to resolve "what and how" part of the question. From the readings it is clear that I need to exercise more discretion on "what not to speak" part first. We derive pleasure from witty retort as it makes conversation lively and entertaining. The discretion part is that it  should not hurt others.


© Ratish
16 Aug

June 04, 2015

Poem: Cattle for slaughter













As walked by a farm
I noticed a new herd in the enclosure
Till recently a flock of sheep
Used to occupy the same pasture

They acknowledge my presence
And within minutes
All rushed
Towards the fence

From this proximity
I could clearly see
Yellow ear tags
They were bred and fed
As cattle for slaughter

It was their fate
To end up on a plate
Ephemeral life as captive
Unaware of hereafter
A cattle for slaughter

Further ahead
I chanced upon a deer
It moved away from me
towards the wild
It was untamed and free

On my way back I had a choice
To walk through a fenced pasture
With another sedate herd grazing
Or take longer route
Within I was clatter for slaughter
Outside I was a deer

Didcot 3rd June
© Ratish

April 26, 2015

Poem: Pieces of Sky

World appears as a dew drops
Scattered on the buds of our eyes
Outstretched hands can reach
To pluck pieces of sky

Our hopes and aspirations
Mingled with naivety
Makes journey's end
Seems almost a certainty

We start to build our castles
With rock, pebble and sand
Using unstable mortar
On an ever shifting land

We choose to forget
One basic premise
Each day we live
Brings us closer to our demise

We do't know
If our dreams will come true
Or if it necessarily should

We don't know
The things we do
Are for greater good

We don't know
At the endgame
How the pieces will rest

But we do know
That journey must end
As we all are guests

So reassess the way you live
Pluck pieces of sky and merrily give

© Ratish
Didcot
26th Apr 2015

April 12, 2015

Poem: Live

The climbs and slopes
Are the way
They are not
Trials or test

Our nature is to flow
and move on
So when tired
take some rest

You may not pass
Same road twice
So pause
To soak in the sights

Tomorrow is not a given
Today is all we have
So live
Each day and night

© Ratish
11th April  15
On Ridgeway day out cycling...

Here on Ridgeway!!



April 08, 2015

Notes to myself: Intent vs. Action

Most of us have good intent in life. Many of us do not deliver against our intent consistently.

How do we translate the intent into action? The velocity of outcome can be tracked through FPS:
  • Focus on why: A strong "why" that will keep you driven. The clarity will help you choose among the options on how this can be best achieved. It will eventually help you coming back to (or not) it if it needs getting done or it may be superseded by alternatives. 
  • Prioritise: Know what the "must haves" are in given situation and time frame. Think about the 80/20 rule. It may be OK to put a few things on the back burner for a while and define what success would look like for things that matter 
  • Score: Measure the progress against desired outcomes. This will help you realign and provide the necessary inputs to course correct.

Challenge yourself to follow-up. Consistent follow-up is the differentiator between a dreamer and achiever.

© Ratish
Didcot

March 01, 2015

Spiritual Equation

I picked up Emotional Equations book by Chip Conley after a long while. This prompted me to think an equation that can act as a guide in my own life. The variables are well known the infinite self and self.

This seems to be a well traversed path. Seekers through the ages would have pondered over this. One verse that stands out is:
ॐ पूर्णमदः पूर्णमिदम् पूर्णात् पूर्णमुदच्यते |
पूर्णस्य पूर्णमादाय पूर्णमेवावशिष्यते ||
ॐ शान्तिः शान्तिः शान्तिः ||
Translation:
That is perfect, this is perfect, this (perfect) comes from that (perfect)
Take perfect from perfect, the remainder is perfect
May peace and peace and peace be everywhere
*Perfect can be replaced by complete, whole, infinite and absolute etc.
Interpretation:
Supreme Being is perfect; you are made in his essence are also perfect. This realization by you does not diminish the completeness of the absolute being. 
 May there be peace around your (external world), extra sensory world (Psychological) and internal worlds.
I was reminded of solving algebra/trigonometric equations earlier in life were we were to prove left hand side equals right hand side. This was achieved by performing various operations such as expansion, and substitution etc.

One particular instance I recall where one of my classmate took a very simple way of solving a particularly complex trigonometric test question. He was able to prove left hand side equals right hand side. His solution was to divide both side by zero. So both side of equations become infinity..

But it did not go very well with our Math teacher. He was enraged by the inventiveness and audacity of the solution. The student was shouted at for sure  and may  even have been canned for his ignorance. Even after all these years I recall the words  which went something like "At least you should have multiplied both side with zero but why divide it?".

This incident gives me a good way to model my spiritual equation. At one side is of the equation is infinite on the the other side self
1 = ∞ 
Then the next logical step is to have zero as denominator of 1. As attachment to self tends towards nothingness self tends to infinity.
  ∞                
 0
 Self              = Infinite
Nothingness

As long as you associate yourself as an individual being there is a barrier between you and the universe (ie. 1/1=1). When your association dissolves with the body and your actions are not as a doer then something magical happens.  Shunya  a concept that was discovered by Indians was much more than zero a mathematical number. In philosophical construct it is closer to nothingness, emptiness, void or even pure consciousness .

People in all walks of life experience this momentarily when the denominator becomes zero. They experience heightened sense of being, disappearing sense of time and exhilarating feeling of transcendence. Typically this occurs when they are doing things they really like to do. The ancient Greeks called ecstasy ie. "stand outside oneself". This is also being researched in modern times as state of consciousness called flow.

© Ratish

February 27, 2015

इदं न मम


कालाग्नि की वेदी पर
समिधा चलाचल है
भस्मिभूत होता जीवन
और इसका हर पल है

हो श्वास की अनवरत लय
या स्पंद-नाद हृदय का
सृष्टि से पहले लिख डाला
तूने स्वांग प्रलय का

है वय से परिमित मेरी
आकांक्षा, अनुसंधान, विजय
पञ्चकृत्य की आहुति लेता
भूत-भविष्य-वर्तमान समय

स्वीकार कर यज्ञ में
ये श्वास
ये स्पंद-नाद
इदं न मम

© Ratish
Didcot 26th Feb 2015



January 17, 2015

Notes to myself: Blind-spots - Can we spot them?

Advent of new year brings along a ritual where we take stock of  life. We reflect on our successes, challenges, contemplate on improvements and course corrections. Our resolutions often get diluted with passage of time. .

We manage to keep some of our long term objective outside the span of immediate recall. We devote our time and effort to pursue other tactical initiative or competing priority [1]. Without focused effort it appears that  mundane takes from the important.

We still have hope as studies suggest that we can use week, month and other natural checkpoints to regain focus and get back on track. [2]. By creating weekly/Monthly reflection ritual we increase our chances of making progress and eventually attaining our long term goals.  We may do this in-spite of missing a few intermediate milestones due to other diversions.

One of the insights I had from annual reflection was that my fastest growth has come in the area where I felt most uncomfortable, lacked proficiency or generally felt out of depth. It is easier to negotiate the learning curve when you can identify the area of improvements. There is ample resources and guidance available that will correct these.    

Some of my biggest challenges have come from my blind-spots. These are areas where I consider myself to be adequately informed or where I am totally unaware of my deficiency [3][4]. Will our blind-spots always remain in the realm of "known unknown", "unknown unknowns" or "unknowable unknowns"?[5][6]. 
Analysis of my historical blind-spot have revealed a pattern of my conditioned responses and behaviour traits that can be broadly classified as: 
  • Not questioning currently held beliefs
  • Crafting arguments to defend my position or rationalising it
  • Thinking it is "You  not Me"
  • Attributing my behaviour or choice to my personality type that cannot be changed
  • Neglecting feedback provided by people around me   
  •  Failure to recognise change in environment or context
Being aware of our habits and the associated triggers may alert us to the issue. We need a focused strategy to rectify this deficiency. The components of our structured response can include some of the methods and techniques below:
  • Change Mindset: Our mindset is often times the limiting factor that keeps us rooted in our old beliefs and actions. Without having a positive learning attitude it will be difficult to make any progress. Acknowledge that you do not have answers figured out for everything under the sun and beyond. 
    • Be aware of your defence mechanism and constructs that you frequently use. Watch out for habits, triggers and conditioned responses. Do not treat them as shields to duck under cross fire. 
    • Be open to suggestions and explore opportunities to learn form experiences of oneself and others. 
    •  Be more aware counter points and alternate view points to positions you naturally hold. Challenge your most dearly held beliefs or assumptions. 
  • Work with others: We may overestimate our capability and be unaware of our own deficiencies. This calls for even more meaningful engagement with our interactions with others.This will give us better handles to unearth issues that are hidden in our plain sight.You may even pick up book or browse videos on any topic to broaden the vision
    • Have people in your life who will tell you "as things are not as you wish to hear it". 
    • Be open to feedback, actively seek it and be sincere to learn and change 
      • Get views from people from different background
      • Do not discount feedback from people whom you may not like for any personal reason. 
    • Seek opportunities to discuss with others 
      • form the point of view of expanding your own understanding rather than influencing others. 
      • Try to grasp how they deal with similar situations or what helps them identify their own "blind-spots".
  • Deliberate Practice: Identify at least one area that you perceive to be your biggest area of improvement - think of "elephant in the fridge". These may be the things that have almost become a second nature to you.Put deliberate focus to identify gaps, learn and improve on specific area through sustained practice and correction loop. You can internalise learning and behaviour changes by follow-ups:
    • Become aware of your mental constructs and arguments and your knee jerk reactions.  
    • Notice the scenarios, activities and circumstances in that act as trigger or cues
    • Identify and plan measured response in future situations. Ideal scenario will be when you become aware of trigger at the moment and can choose to take measured response instead of conditioned response
    • Reinforce new behaviour and learning with regular practice  
    • Schedule regular review sessions to identify progress and course correction
Mirrors make our driving safer in dense traffic, undulating roads or inclement weather. Similarly awareness of blind-spot helps us to overcome limitations and march forward in personal growth path.  

© Ratish

References:


[1] Good and Bad Procrastination
There are three variants of procrastination, depending on what you do instead of working on something: you could work on (a) nothing, (b) something less important, or (c) something more important. 
People are more likely to pursue various types of aspirational behaviour (e.g., dieting, exercising, goal pursuit) at the start of “new epochs” initiated by the incidence of temporal landmarks, including the beginning of a new week, month, year, and school semester, as well as immediately following a public holiday, a school break, or a birthday.
A cognitive bias wherein unskilled individuals suffer from illusory superiority, mistakenly rating their ability much higher than is accurate. The mis-calibration of the incompetent stems from an error about the self, whereas the mis-calibration of the highly competent stems from an error about others
[4] Unskilled and Unaware of It: How Difficulties in Recognizing One's Own Incompetence Lead to Inflated Self-Assessments
Successful negotiation of everyday life would seem to require people to possess insight about deficiencies in their intellectual and social skills. However, people tend to be blissfully unaware of their incompetence. This lack of awareness arises because poor performers are doubly cursed: Their lack of skill deprives them not only of the ability to produce correct responses, but also of the expertise necessary to surmise that they are not producing them. People base their perceptions of performance, in part, on their preconceived notions about their skills. Because these notions often do not correlate with objective performance, they can lead people to make judgements about their performance that have little to do with actual accomplishment.
[5]  Anosognosic’s Dilemma: Something’s Wrong but You’ll Never Know What It Is
Unknown unknown risksare problems that people do not know they are vulnerable to. Unknown unknowns also exist at the level of solutions.  People often come up with answers to problems that are o.k., but are not the best solutions.  The reason they don’t come up with those solutions is that they are simply not aware of them.Unknown unknown solutions haunt the mediocre without their knowledge.
[6] Donald Rumsfeld quote
“Reports that say that something hasn't happened are always interesting to me, because as we know, there are known knowns; there are things we know we know. We also know there are known unknowns; that is to say we know there are some things we do not know. But there are also unknown unknowns- the ones we don't know we don't know.”


January 04, 2015

Notes to myself: Read Manuals - Less is more

Notes to myself is an attempt to create a new ritual. The intention is to capture thoughts and experience in life through reflection on recent events and experiences.

Our memory is biased towards recency. Each recent event appears as a letter crisply typed on a page. This page is deposited in the library of our mind gathering dust. In due course some of the pages become faded, some blank and some words and sentences of page remain true. The more often we visit a page or book from this library the longer it stays lucid.

We tend to loose details through automatic purge that happens daily. We use the same page to rewrite our story each day. Only a very selective parts of our experience, events, places visited, learnings ever make it into the library after the cleanse.

These notes are an attempt to document things that have impacted me in some way. It may provide material to reflect in future, solidify lessons learned, act as a guide post on how events have shaped me and provide course correction information.

This is not intended as a daily journal. It is meant for regular periodic reflections, may be weekly.

Read Manuals - Less is more

I am a photography enthusiast and have a DSLR for more than a year. This new year day I was in London for the new year's parade. It provided some spectacular photo opportunity. I was fortunate to have a good spot and the weather was holding as well. I got some good images from this even.

After the event I compared my images with ones posted on official event page. The professionals had and advantage of better gear, had flexibility to better position themselves. In retrospect I could have achieved even better results if I was more conversant in using various features of my device.

I  have never bothered to go through the camera manual - Who does this anyway?  I had read about digital photography, looked up work of renowned photographers and browsed through a few tutorials.This has resulted in gradual improvements in my skill over a period of time. All this while I was woefully unaware on specific on the features and capability of my camera.

With the life full of distractions and wants we tend to skim things. Having too many options clouds our focus.  We do not devote time or effort to go through the grind . It is an easier option to move on to the next best thing that catches our fancy. It takes practice and repetition to anchor the learning and make them your own.  Before we can soar we should learn to stand on firm ground.

I had started developing an itch to own a telephoto lens. I am putting this plan on hold while I sort a few things out. Sometimes "Less is More" and you may need to go deep before you can go broad.

© Ratish

January 03, 2015

Memory

I go this way and that
And then ramble some more
I keep on searching for something
Not knowing what I am looking for

Sometimes I  see same warp and woof
Sometimes a different yarn
At times I feel my life's stories
Are worth less than tales before I was born

When focused I pursue
Inconsequential  with all my zeal
When diffused I accept
The mundane to be really real

Strange game we play
Learn and unlearn
Retain in memory
Or discard each day

2nd Jan 2015
Didcot
© Ratish